Monday, December 18, 2017

Getting Real About Anxiety


Photo by Madeline Mullenbach 

Earlier today I read this blog post written by a girl about my age who describes what it is like to battle anxiety on a daily basis. I remember reading the article and being immediately relieved that some of the "symptoms" I face everyday are normal. I thought to myself "I'm not the only one who's going through this???" and then I felt convicted. When I originally began blogging it was an outlet to get away from all of the things in the world that stress me out or give me anxiety. It brings me so much joy to share with you all fun things like style inspiration, my favorite makeup products, sales guides, etc. that I never really thought twice about using the platform that I have as a blogger to reach out in a new way. 

I'll be totally honest... I hate talking about my anxiety. For a long time I had no idea that what I was going through everyday had a name, but I think the worse it became the more I knew there was more to me than what was going on. If you have anxiety (whether severe or not) it is scary! Even if you only have anxiety about certain situations, I feel for you and I think you are so brave. 

I feel like I need to share my experience with anxiety because if you relate to this I want you to be relieved like I was when I knew I was no longer alone in this struggle. The fear of never being good enough, a constant fear of the future, fear of irrational things, fear of being alone, lots and lots of fear.  Chest pains, hives, nausea, fatigue and headaches all caused by the thoughts in your own mind that you can't even control. I like to write thinugs down... my planner is a mess because I tell myself that if I don't write things down, I won't remember what I was supposed to do and then I'll fail. I make a lot of excuses for things like not texting people back even when I wanted to talk to them or not reaching out to someone even though I greatly love or admire them because I don't even know why I do things sometimes. 

Luckily for me I have an amazing support system that knows me and loves me anyways! However, I know lots of you don't have that or know what that is like. 

My friends, there is a bright light at the end of this tunnel and His name is Jesus. 

My life verse since I was little has always been Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified, do not be discouraged for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." This verse is talking about plain old fear! It does't matter what kind of fears we face, rational or irrational, small or giant, the Lord will walk through it with us. You are never alone! It gets even better though... Romans 5:8 tells us "But God showed His love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us." He loves us despite anything we could possibly be anxious about. He loves us despite all of the times that we have failed or tell ourselves that we have failed. He loves us even when we don't love ourselves. 

Finally, about all of those worries about the future... Jeremiah 29:11 says "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future." The King of the universe has a plan for your life! How stinking cool is that. 

I have loved Jesus since I can remember so I know that loving Him doesn't equal a perfect life. God never promised it would be easy! But friends, I encourage you the next time you begin to feel anxious and bogged down by the world to lean in to the one who created you. If anything, let His love surround you and know that through Him all things are possible.

You are enough. 

2 comments:

  1. Hey girl! It's so great you shared this. I definitely know where you're coming from and I'm working hard to do better myself too, but I just wanted to share something that really helps. As a Christian I think anxiety is extra hard for us sometimes because we are pretty much told that we should just trust God and it won't be a problem anymore, but people don't get that when you are truly battling anxiety that is just plain unhelpful. I have found that understanding anxiety better actually does help me to do what God is asking of me because it better gives me the tools to do so. These YouTube channels (all by one person) have been a tremendous help for me ilovepanicattacks.tv, ilovepanicattacks, & attackyouranxiety & so did this guys book which is on Amazon for only a few bucks. Hope that helps you, even if its just a little! :)

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    1. Hi Rachael!

      Thank you so much for your comment! I definitely know where you are coming from! For a long time I had no idea why I was the way I was or why I did certain things, but researching anxiety and talking to others who have had similar experiences helped immensely. Thank you for sharing those resources! I will definitely check them out.

      XOXO // Hannah

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